Where did the sunshine go?
I don’t want to smile, but then again I don’t want to cry either.
Every day feels like a struggle, and the path unclear
I search for truth, and find it allusive
So many lies surround me, and hang in the air
Like arrows waiting to pounce.
They lie in wait, searching for my weakness
Then strike with hurtful aim
I took a chance, a leap of faith
I opened my heart and felt again
Safe and happy I was, more than I imagined
Now I’ve been left to a waiting game
No answers, no words, no actions to decipher
To help me understand my abandonment
Crying out in the wilderness for a kind word of Truth
I remember the warmth and light
Now I’m shadowed by a mist of unknown
Keep hoping, keep praying, keep standing
Knowing at any moment I may crumble and fall
Because of the ache inside that has made its home
Comfort runs from me and I am bare
But no one sees me behind my veil
I have a smile on my face
But I’m crying on the inside
trying my best to do whats right
Weary of being hidden and alone
Not even sure if I’m living or existing
Do I have a purpose, is there any one who needs me?
Why must I always be strong?
Love why are you so far away?
What did I do wrong?
Pray tell me what’s the secret that many know so well?
I was content before you stroked my heart
Happy I was knowing my place
Before you came and changed everything
The day I felt the sun shine like rain.